Mixed feelings

In 1980 my father married my step monster.  I have NEVER liked her.  She is mean spirited and never treated me like her own.  I never knew what my dad saw in her but figured there must be something good to attract a great guy like him.  I dreamed of him leaving her for years.  Finally I gave up hoping for that and just focused on getting out of their house and away from her.

So as over joyed as I am that he has seen her for what she is, and is divorcing her mean spirited and money grubbing butt, I have a sad side effect.  Her family who has been MY family for the last 30 years will no longer be MINE.  Sure I will still chat with them. I will still stop to see them when I'm in town, as I'm sure they will do if they are in  my neck of the woods.  It's those family get togethers that I will miss.  That's when this huge 90+ member family all comes together and you get to see people you don't get to see on the regular basis.  Thanksgiving, Christmas, and 4th of July...  My siblings don't have the same issue, they are HER children.  So no one will think twice about whether they should come or not.  I'm the "floater" .  Her family is wonderful by the way.  (I never understood how she could be so different.)  They have always accepted me and made me feel like one of them.  They have always seen how she treated me and been quick to comfort or commiserate with me.  I cannot however expect them to invite me when SHE will be in attendance.  That makes me really sad.

Be careful what you wish for I guess.