First I want to thank all of you for your kind words and well wishes. It's comforting to know there are people out there sending you a little bit of love. I drug you all kicking and screaming as this blog turned into a pregnancy log and felt you deserved to know the truth about the situation. Thanks for hanging in here with me.
I still have no sign of my body taking care of itself here and waiting is frustrating. My husband said it best with "she's in a holding pattern." I am not officially pregnant but I'm still carrying the baby. It's not over for me yet. This is so unlike the first miscarriage I had. Way different. I've decided that when I talk to the doctor today I will ask for her to schedule the procedure. It seems so cold and clinical but if it brings me some closure maybe it's worth it.
I had another post here today. I thought about it all night long. After posting it I felt so bare and so exposed that I had to pull it down. My emotions are too raw right now and even though you have all always been kind to me I was afraid of criticism. I'm a coward. Maybe I can republish it later, I don't know. (Thank you Happy and Blue for your kind words on it.)
Tell those you love that you do. Take care.
I finally got to talk to the Dr. I'm scheduled for the procedure on Friday. FRIDAY. This is gonna be a long week.
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Oh sweetie, I'm so sorry. I know you've already had a lot of ups and downs concerning this pregnancy and now this...I hope you know that we all feel for you, and that you should be able to get out all of your emotions without anyone judging you harshly.
My last pregnancy, the only time I intentionally got pregnant, the only pregnancy with my current beloved Hubby,ended in miscarriage after three weeks in labor on bedrest. I still cry. We are with you. There are a few miscarriage poems on the fairsCaPe blog when you're ready. Say whatever you want sweetie. We are here for you.
I hope you have the D&C soon - there's absolutely no point courting the risk of infection in addition to everything else you're going through. Hang in there, things will feel better in time. We're thinking of you.
Awww OGO, I wish there was something I could say to make it better, but I know there isn't.
Please take care of yourself. Know that you are in all of our thoughts and prayers. I can't imagine what it's like to go through something like this but lean on your family (and us). We're here for you.
I'm so sorry you're dealing with this, I'll keep you in my prayers and hopefully Friday will hurry up and get here. I'm sorry there's nothing else I can say or do for you. We're all here for you, though, if you need to talk. *hugs*
Who cares? I do. And Jay said very well what I was feeling when I read this post.
I will def keep you and your family in my prayers...get some rest honey.
I am very sorry that you have to go through this. You continue to be in my thoughts and prayers.
I tried to post yesterday, but blogger ate it. I'm so sorry to hear all this. After just having Kenslee I can't image the heartace you guys are going through. Hang in there. My thoughts are with you.
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