Update

Well my dad and brothers will be here tomorrow to help us move to the new place on Saturday. I'm so excited to see them. It will be the first time my dad will meet my son.

My real estate agent has started scheduling new showings because the guy we have a contract with isn't getting his paperwork in like he's supposed to. This is freakin' me out a little. We hurried to find a place to move to because this guy wanted a quick closing. We STILL don't have a closing date because he's missing paperwork! If this guy backs out we could get left paying on two places. That is one place more than I can afford! Most everyone I talk to says to move forward. Walk in faith and believe that things will work out. That's what we've decided to do. It's scary!

Someone is looking at our house tonight. I am doing what I can to make it look decent but considering there are boxes stacked everywhere it's tough! :) My agent said that lots of times people prefer that so they know they could move right in. We'll see.

We now have health insurance again. It is a relief to me. It's a non issue till you don't have it!

I've dyed my hair red. I stopped coloring it when I noticed greys popping up. I'm a weirdo I guess because I like them! After seeing my mom recently at my brothers wedding she expressed to me how much she liked my hair red. Then she said that I have the rest of my life to be grey and that I should live it up while I can still get away with it. My husband of course was all over joyed! He loves my hair red.

I better go find something to do. Perhaps that will stop those butterflies in my belly!

I can't wait till all this stuff has settled and you won't need to hear all my WHINING!

LIVID!

So I am pouring myself a cup of coffee getting ready to attack my packing again when I hear a knock at the door. I wasn't expecting anyone but figured it was my neighbor. I open the door to find two women and a young boy. One of the women is a real estate agent. She is there to show my house to a perspective buyer. She asks if I knew she was coming. I told her I had no idea. She then tells me that she understands that our house is under contract but that she was hoping we'd let her see the house as a back up to the contract. She says she's been emailing my agent who is on vacation AGAIN but that my agent hadn't replied. I don't know if they had already set it up and my agent didn't tell me or if she just didn't get the emails. My agent reassured me that even while she was on vacation she still took care of business that arises back home. I don't know what happened but I'm not happy.

My house was a mess! Each time we were showing the house I would spend a ton of time cleaning it. I wanted to make a good impression. Today, well today it was strewn with boxes. Clutter everywhere. My daughter was lounging on the sofa in her nightgown. My son was sitting on the toilet with the door open. (Don't ask.) I had dishes in the sink. My underwear was right on the TOP of my laundry basket! That may sound stupid to you but I always covered what clothes were in the basket with a towel or something. I was mortified to say the least. I felt so embarrassed.

Time to fire off an email to my agent. Let's see what she has to say.

Pity party

I know I've neglected my blog. I've been sucked into the real time addiction of Facebook. So I'm not sure many people will read this. Which I suppose is for the best because I don't know if I will leave it up. The feelings are bubbling up inside me and I feel like I gotta get them out somehow.

This whole new job and moving thing really has me off balance. I try to be positive but I have moments of weakness. Today I feel like such a loser. I feel like by this time in our lives we should be settled in and comfortable, and we were! Then BLAMO we are sent reeling. Our finances obliterated. Our security gone. We are starting over. New company with lower pay. I'm leaving my lovely house to go to a much smaller apartment. My house is under contract but we have no closing date yet. I'm afraid that something is gonna happen and the deal will fall through. Then I'll be stuck paying for two places which we CANNOT do for long. I have to move my kids into a new school again. I just feel like a loser.

I know we aren't alone. I know that this sort of thing is happening all over the country these days. I feel for everyone who is dealing with it. I KNOW that there is good things coming out of this. I DO! I just don't feel it today.

Update

Nothing new to report. Since I went all whiny on you the other day I thought it was only right to tell you I'm feeling better. Nothing was solved or hashed out. I'm pushing past it and focusing on more important stuff. I have a full plate I don't need the extra helping of crud. :)

My agent said that we're looking at MAYBE closing on the 20th of July. Don't know when that changed from the 10th. It looks like I'll be paying for TWO places in July. Got some great feedback about the place we're moving to though. It sounds peaceful.

Happy Friday!

shake it off

Ever have a day when you feel like you could just burst into tears at any moment? Yeah, it's one of those days. A few people hurt my feelings yesterday and it upset me. Today it just seems to linger I guess. I hate the feeling and I've tried to shake it off. Tried to ignore it but it's still there. They probably haven't even given it a second thought and yet I sit here on the verge of tears.

I need to go bake.

On the edge

We officially have a place to move TO! CCB put the deposit down today. We have an address and lots of info to go over. We've been told that the schools are excellent. YAY!

My agent has been having plenty of issues of her own. Car accident, grammy in the hospital, other family issues. I have been having trouble contacting her. Believe it or not we have most of our communication through Facebook. Interesting. Anyway. I'm hoping things are going well though I don't have confirmation. I had a pang of fear shoot through me last night. What if we put down the deposit THEN the contract on our house falls through? EEK! I don't even want to go there. LA LA LA LA moving on to something else.

I've been packing up non essentials. I'm hoping that if my sweet CCB keeps me in a steady stream of boxes it should be less hectic at the end of our time here. One of the things I liked about this house was that there was a place for everything. Even if I only needed that pot or platter once or twice a year it had an easily accessible home. Now I'm marking things that can go into storage so I don't waste time on them when we unpack. *sigh* I'm gonna miss this place.

BUT!!! My brothers are driving down from Missouri with a horse trailer and my dad is flying in from Colorado to help me move! I'm excited to see them. It's been ages. I can't believe they are going through all that trouble just for me. It makes me want to cry. I love them so.

Wednesday

Today we're pretending it's Father's day. My sweet CCB has to work on the official day so we didn't want him to miss out. I had a great time "surprising" him with breakfast this morning. I had both kids in the kitchen helping me out. That is rare occurrence. Though it was so nice I may have to make a more regular deal.

Looking forward to being closer to CCB's job. We found a townhouse that is only 8 minutes away! We don't have to pay nearly as high a rent as we would if we lived in Lafayette but we are close enough to enjoy the stuff they have to offer. We are just waiting to hear if we get the place or not. It seems like it was meant to be because the other night while looking for a link to share with my cousin I found a bunch of reviews for the other place we were looking at. They said that even though they were new there was a lot of bad apples moving in there and it was not getting taken care of. SO I found this other place. We had actually seen it when CCB first got this job but we had to wait for the sale of the house. I called the next morning to see if the had a 3 bedroom and one was JUST coming available. The people haven't even left it yet. If I'd have called earlier or later it may not have been available! *GRIN* Must be that squeaky wheel huh, Lucy?

Boxes are proving to be elusive. My hubby is bringing them home but not in the quantity I'd like. Buying them is pricey and seems to be a waste for such a short period of time. I've found some free ones on craigslist but the people haven't replied to my email. Most places compact them now. I'm hoping to score some from the produce dept at Walmart. Wish me luck!

Since I've once again run out of boxes I decided to clean out the crap so I don't have to do it when I pack. I decided to check out this old file cabinet that we've had in the corner of the shop since we've been here. I though it was empty. OH NO! It had bank statements going back to 1989! Receipts from our wedding preparations and trinkets from my first baby shower! Quite a walk down memory lane I'll tell ya. My shredder over heated several times! It's not getting toted around anymore! Feels good to purge the crud!

Well it's off to lavish daddy with more love and adoration. It is his day and all.