We got some news last night that someone we know has a baby that is having some medical troubles. Normally I would automatically slip into their shoes and most likely cry like a baby. I would feel her pain and be compassionate. I'm ashamed to say that while I have sent up a bucketful of prayers for this little baby I just don't seem to be able to muster much concern for the mother.
This is a person who said some terrible things about someone close to me as well as people in my family. Did I mention this person was PART of our family? Yeah. This person was blacklisted from the family after her accusations but has recently started making inroads with family members. We (my husband and I) have no issue with other members of the family associating with her, that's their choice. We choose not to.
I know people change. I know I certainly have over the years. I don't feel it's right that she said what she did and went about her merry way. Maybe if she apologized I'd feel differently. Who knows? I don't wish her ill. I just have no feelings for her at all. Not even compassion. I know that's awful, I know it's wrong and it worries me. It's very unlike me. I cry watching the news, commercials, sappy movies etc. Even though I dislike her you'd think I'd sympathize. I'm a mother for heavens sake!
4 comments:
You wouldn't be human if you felt love and compassion to everyone who'd ever pissed you off. She sounds like bad news.
Your feelings are completely normal...but isn't it frustrating when you don't WANT to feel the way you do. I wish so often that I could just NOT be so mad at my mother or NOT be so frustrated with some of my students, but we can't control it for some odd reason! If I were you, I'd pray for yourself and your feelings. Just ask God to open your heart and for him to make you compassionate toward your "enenmies" This is one of the hardest things to do!
Good luck!
Have you heard of The Four Agreements? Google it if you like...One of them helps you not to take things personally. I go back to it over and over, even though I agreee wtih Mrs Thistletwas, who has the BEST name ever!
karma's a bitch...
I hope the baby ends up okay but maybe this is a wake up call that you should always treat others the way you'd like to be treated. Hope the whole family ends up okay either way...
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