I know I've neglected my blog. I've been sucked into the real time addiction of Facebook. So I'm not sure many people will read this. Which I suppose is for the best because I don't know if I will leave it up. The feelings are bubbling up inside me and I feel like I gotta get them out somehow.
This whole new job and moving thing really has me off balance. I try to be positive but I have moments of weakness. Today I feel like such a loser. I feel like by this time in our lives we should be settled in and comfortable, and we were! Then BLAMO we are sent reeling. Our finances obliterated. Our security gone. We are starting over. New company with lower pay. I'm leaving my lovely house to go to a much smaller apartment. My house is under contract but we have no closing date yet. I'm afraid that something is gonna happen and the deal will fall through. Then I'll be stuck paying for two places which we CANNOT do for long. I have to move my kids into a new school again. I just feel like a loser.
I know we aren't alone. I know that this sort of thing is happening all over the country these days. I feel for everyone who is dealing with it. I KNOW that there is good things coming out of this. I DO! I just don't feel it today.
4 comments:
It has been rough for you guys. If anyone deserves a pity party,it is you. But remember it is just that, a party, and all parties have a start and end time, they can't go on forever. You are one strong cookie and will make it through whatever comes your way.
I don't have any words of wisdom. I feel for you, I really do. Be strong OGO. Stay positive and for goodness sakes, you are in no way, shape or form a loser. You all are doing the best you can for your family right now. Hang in there. I'm thinking about you...
Granny Annie's comment kicks so much ass that I can't compare.
I do award you two points for using "blamo" though.
And, yeah, you're not a loser. And if you guys need help with anything you know you can call us. :)
Alright Misty, snap out of it....Come on, breath in, now breath out... Think of all the positives:
You still have your wonderful CCB and the kids: CCB DOES have a job, even if it is lower pay: You were able to sell your house...Don't panic, it will close...
The Lord promises, that he will not give you more than you can handle.. Maybe it's just not your time to be "settled"... The Lord is moving you around till you find just the right place...Just a thought... I know it's a pain in the you know what, but there's a reason for it.
Don't give up blogging.... You can write stuff here that you can't put on Facebook. I love reading your posts....
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