Saturday, January 28, 2012

Rest

So I have been having a terrible time sleeping.  I can get to sleep but I can't stay asleep.  It makes for a very long night.  I tried taking Tylenol PM and Advil PM.  They worked great initially.  I fell into a dreamless sleep and woke up feeling pretty good.  That was until they stopped working.   So then I tried exercising it didn't help.  I tried Yogi Bed time tea..  It relaxed me but then I had to get up 3 times that night to pee!  UGH. 

I had to go to the doctor to get my lab slip for my regular thyroid medication.  I sat there on the verge of tears explaining how I cannot sleep.  My doctor prescribed some meds.  He said it was flexible enough for me to adjust myself.  If one tab makes me feel groggy the next day I can cut it in half.  If it isn't working I can take 2.  I felt like a chump having to ask for help sleeping but the doctor reassured me that I was in a vicious cycle.  Stress can keep me from sleeping and the lack of sleep stresses me out more.  He said my thyroid is probably out of whack as well.  *SIGH  I'm not a pill taker normally.  I hate the idea that I have to rely on something foreign to make me rest but I'm at my wits end.

I picked up my prescription and started to read the information slip inside.  It's not a sleeping pill, it's an antidepressant!  I don't feel like a chump anymore.  I feel like a loser!  I know I shouldn't feel this way but I don't FEEL like I'm depressed.  I felt like I was working through my issues and dealing well with it.  Now I have meds for it.  :(  I'm hoping I can get off them quickly.  I don't like having meds that mess with my head. 

7 comments:

Lorna said...

Sleeplessness is really a serious problem, but not one that is alien to people in your circumstances. I take anti-depression medicine every day and thank God that someone developed it. In some ways, we live in a wonderful age---eg, Tylenol and Advil, although last year, after I bought the Advil PM to help with the pain I was feeling, I found I was too old to take it. Do not take after 65---and that instruction was only on the inside of the box.

I digress. I hope you can take things that help you and still be guilt-free.

Lorna said...

And Who Cares? me.

Oh great One said...

Thank you Lorna. :)

Granny Annie said...

You are depressed and rightly so. There is nothing wrong with that as it happens to the best of us. You have a good doctor who recognized that. And you know I care:)

splendid said...

just because it is labeled as a anti-depressant does not mean it was prescribed for that. Try it see if helps with your sleep. People who suffer from depression are not losers, they are people suffering from something real.

Oh great One said...

Thank you Granny Annie.

Oh great One said...

Splendid you are right. People with depression are not losers. It's just difficult having to admit you need outside help. I have trouble asking for help, so this was particularly difficult for me. Thank you for your input. They ARE helping me sleep.